Father
Of course, I know my Father is dead
I took the call from the hospital
I went to the funeral and did the talking
I held my Mother among the mourners
There can be no doubt about it
And I haven’t seen him around for a while
So that’s the clincher.
But then again, I saw him yesterday
In the hall of the old house
In the threshold mirror
As a moving man walked past
With the shape of his face
Triggering a reflection of my Father
In a short, silent, dad-cast.
And this morning I found him hiding in a letter
Coming into the open in its unfolding
He stayed out for most of the day
Holding the saw when I cut wood
Walking with me
And coasting the car in neutral,
He saved the gearbox.
I like this new Dad, whiffling along
In the weave of the day
He doesn’t shout anymore, say I’m stupid
He’s given up telling me I’m clumsy
There’s no more “Do You Understand?”
Like a flag after a fete
I may furl him away.